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gordonzola ([personal profile] gordonzola) wrote2007-11-12 01:14 pm

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So, obviously I haven't been on LJ much for a couple weeks. I agreed to do the zine for Lance Hahn's memorial. That, combined with my thanksgiving cheese buying responsibilities, left me really no time for anything else.

The zine included about 20 submissions of art or writing, childhood pictures sent by his sister, some writing of Lance's that his partner found while cleaning up his desk, a couple of things from the surviving Epicenter logbooks, and a million pictures and J Church/Cringer graphics scanned from our personal collections.

I mentioned this in the intro I wrote, but it was really hard to put this together. I thought it would be easier for me because, while we were friends, I was not as close to him as some other people were. After spending this week receiving nothing but Lance memorial news, submissions and stories in my e-mail box, I'm glad that I could help spare Lance's closest friends this task.

It was overwhelming. I wasn't able to get Lance's voice out of my head but I also couldn't stop listening to his music. Obviously I also had to keep reading the submissions and e-mail questions. I started and ended many of these days crying. The outpouring of love for Lance is remarkable and speaks to what a special person he was.

Two old Epicenter friends came over on Friday and we spent 8PM – 3 AM eating food, drinking beer and putting the 40 page zine together. We did it old school, cut and paste, gluestick, 8.5 x 14-folded in half-style. I spent most of the next day printing 250 copies.

The memorial was last night and really a special, if often too-crowded, event. Lance's sister brought home movies. There were videos of J Church. The room was covered with pictures, graphics, album covers, and flyers. I don't know how many people were there over the course of the night but it was a lot, especially when you consider that Lance hadn't lived here for 7 years. It was part memorial, part Epicenter reunion, and part punk show (without bands). Punks aren't great about showing their emotions, but people did their best. Old grudges were even overlooked for the night, maybe even forever, who knows?

It was really good to see a lot of the people there. It made me miss Lance, miss a lot of those people and even miss the old days a little even if I don't want to go back. The '90s Mission punk scene was a special time even if it sucked a lot too. I think many of us were mourning that loss and the loss of our own youth as well as mourning Lance.

I may have extra copies of the zine after I mail out the ones that were requested by out of town submitters. Let me know if you are interested.

*My original Lance Hahn obit is here in case you missed it the first time.

[identity profile] atthesametime.livejournal.com 2007-11-12 09:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks for putting the zine together, Gordon. Just writing my little thing was hard for me, I can't imagine how hard it must have been to put the whole thing together. If there are any extra copies laying around, I'd love one.

[identity profile] gordonzola.livejournal.com 2007-11-13 04:44 am (UTC)(link)
you're already on the list. send me your address (even if you already did - sorry). gordon at gordonzola dot net

[identity profile] rednfiery.livejournal.com 2007-11-13 12:05 am (UTC)(link)
what a wonderful tribute and memorial for friends and loved ones to hold on to. you're a really sweet friend, g.

[identity profile] gordonzola.livejournal.com 2007-11-13 04:45 am (UTC)(link)
awww thanks.

yes please

[identity profile] fluxions.livejournal.com 2007-11-13 12:31 am (UTC)(link)
Matt was friends with Lance, and I know he would really like a copy of the zine. I was first introduced to J Church from old Cool Beans! compilations.

Matt Kelly
3020 El Cerrito Plaza #253
El Cerrito, CA 94530

Thanks for putting the zine together. We're sorry we couldn't make the memorial, but the time change to 6pm didn't work for us.

Re: yes please

[identity profile] gordonzola.livejournal.com 2007-11-13 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry the time didn't work for you guys. It would have been good to see you. I'll definitely send you guys one even if I have to print some extra.

Re: yes please

[identity profile] fluxions.livejournal.com 2007-11-13 04:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks, that would be great.

[identity profile] brownstargirl.livejournal.com 2007-11-13 12:42 am (UTC)(link)
you do a lot, you. and I can only second sean about how emotionally exhausting I'm sure this was. I am wishing for a vacation for you now that's it's done.

[identity profile] gordonzola.livejournal.com 2007-11-13 04:48 am (UTC)(link)
yeah, maybe after my January trade show. a vacation from death would be nice sooner though.

[identity profile] villagecharm.livejournal.com 2007-11-13 01:54 am (UTC)(link)
I remember doing fanzines that way, and it's an amazing feat to put one together on such short notice. If you have a spare copy, I'd love to see it. Let me know if you want an SASE or some other way to pay for postage.

[identity profile] gordonzola.livejournal.com 2007-11-13 04:47 am (UTC)(link)
your piece is in it so you are gonna get one. send me your address again?

gordon at gordonzola dot net

[identity profile] ilipodscrill.livejournal.com 2007-11-13 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
the zine is really sweet and wonderful.

[identity profile] gordonzola.livejournal.com 2007-11-13 04:47 am (UTC)(link)
awww, thanks Pete.