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No explanation needed really.

The Pride parade is one of the largest pride celebrations in the country and attracts thousands of spectators. We are looking for other DPH departments and staff to represent the dedication DPH has to the LGBT community at this very fun and exciting event. City Clinic will be featuring the Healthy Penis Campaign, three Healthy Penis costumes and our Phil the syphilis sore costume.

If you are interested in joining City Clinic and marching along side our famous penis and syphilis sore costumes, or even dressing up as one of the characters, please e-mail...
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Wow. I wasn’t on the computer much yesterday and it seems like everyone on my Friendslist posted something. I honestly don’t have much to add. Drinking is the correct response to four more years of Bush and all the marriage amendments passing, and I’m proud to see everyone is on the same page there.

I was out at dinner last night and sat next to a table of what I’ll stereotypically refer to as "bitchy queens", older white men in their 60s. They were blaming the election on the gay marriage caravan. Anyone out there know anyone who was on it? Supposedly, in town after town the gay community recoiled in horror and fear of the Winnebago full of married homos and pleaded with them not to hold a demonstration in their areas for fear it would help pass the marriage amendments and re-elect Bush. Because of this, the Winnebago drove through wide swaths of the country quiet and lonely doing not much but burning gasoline. What a great combination of liberal city arrogance and fearful liberal losing strategy!

Of course, the guys at the table were more the self-hating variety judging by the vehemence with which they scolded the pro-marriage folks instead of the gay haters. Besides, I know it’s not fair but I always assume everyone at a German restaurant is right wing except for me and my friends. Shockingly, I always seem to go to these restaurants with Jews and the Holocaust always comes up at least once before dessert. By the way, the Chronicle today actually said Bush got 20% of the gay vote, though cited no source.

Anyways, many people have written things about the election already so you all should go read them if you haven’t already. [livejournal.com profile] slit( this image sums up some of it for a lot of us), [livejournal.com profile] nihilistic_kid, [livejournal.com profile] slanderous, [livejournal.com profile] rootlesscosmo, [livejournal.com profile] walktheplank pop to mind as thought-provoking even if I have disagreements with them as they do with each other. And it’s not like I have had time to even catch up on my friendslist though so I’m sure there are more.

Oh well, off to cut cheese like always.
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(This was written for a zine that never came out so I'm posting it here on the ten year anniversary of the death of Marlon Riggs and Kurt Cobain. The topic? It was [livejournal.com profile] mala106's idea and I still think it's a good one. "Each person will write an essay about a person who is more punk rock than the average punk rock scenester. It can be anyone you want, living or dead. For example, Toby is going to do 'my GRANDMA is more punk rock than you.' I am going to do 'harriet tubman is more punk rock than you'll ever be.'")


I was still working at one of punk rock’s big institutions that week in 1994 when Marlon Riggs and Kurt Cobain both died. For once, the myopic indie label "politics" of punk worked in my favor. Because Nirvana had "sold out" by signing to a major label, public Kurt Cobain-mourning wasn’t OK there. So when I put up a memorial to Marlon Riggs at the punk store it was, ironically, one of the few places in the country where Riggs’s death wasn’t completely overshadowed by Cobain’s. I’ve been waiting for a chance to write this article ever since.

Marlon Riggs was a Black, gay, political, pro-feminist documentary filmmaker. In his far-too-short career he produced only four films, Ethnic Notions, Tongues Untied, Color Adjustment and Black Is, Black Ain’t . When I first saw his films I was in my late teens/early twenties and searching for models of how to be a political, pro-feminist man. With each film, and despite our obvious differences in background, Riggs provided some of these examples by showing the world in nuanced, complicated ways, rejecting easy political models and pushing for more.

If one thinks of punk as an underground art form, they should try finding copies of Riggs’s films today. Even though they were made for PBS, they’re very hard to find unless you want to buy your own copies. Not having seen any of his films since they came out, I decided watch them again while preparing to write this article. Unfortunately I could only find two of the four and if it wasn’t for the Gay Collection at the Castro branch of the San Francisco Public Library it would only have been one.

Tongues Untied is probably Riggs’s punkest film in terms of attitude, reflecting a sarcastic, political and angry subculture and not prettying it up for the public. Tongues is also activist, arty, and poetic. Surveying American Black, gay culture, Riggs tried to show the love, creativity, humor and resistance skills that dwell there through poetry, and dance as well as more standard narratives. He also tried not to ignore the confusion and ugliness engendered by struggles to survive in a society that wants to kill, use, or ignore Black men, especially Black, gay men. The film seemed to be an attempt to actually create dialogue and community out of the people and testimony it was portraying, rather than seeking to be just a viewing experience.

Riggs said of the film, "Frankly, with Tongues Untied if white heterosexuals don't understand the reasons why black people are angry and just consider this piece militant, then so be it. I'm not going to take time to justify this for people for whom this experience is totally alien. Tongues Untied is an affirmation of the feelings and experiences of black gay men, made for them by a black gay man, or actually by black gay men because the piece has a number of voices. If others understand, fine, but making sure everyone understands was not my prerequisite in making this." (Jump Cut: A Review of Contemporary Media #36, 1991) As a white man watching this film, one of my points of entry was precisely this. Prettied up or assimilationist may have appealed to some audiences, but the honesty with which Tongues was created made it accessible to me with the cultural criticism I grew up on. And even if the final product was more Last Poets (without the homophobia) than The Clash.

When Tongues came out, the Christian right targeted Riggs, using selective images of gay, Black men from the film to help scare U.S. legislators into cutting public funding for the arts. Riggs spoke out against this. "(The Christian Right says) Bring back the melting pot. Restore ‘traditional values.’ Re-institute prayer in schools. Preserve the primacy of Western civilization (the only one that matters anyway). And not least, protect that critical bedrock of American greatness: ‘the American family’ Such pronouncements reveal an intense, even pathological desire to perpetuate a thoroughly obsolete myth of America, and through this, a repressively orthodox system of sociocultural entitlement."

There is some poetry and dance in Black is, Black Ain’t, but it’s a more standard form of documentary with heavy hitters from the left Black intellectual and arts communities (including bell hooks, Essex Hemphill, Angela Davis, Cornel West, Barbara Smith and Bill T. Jones) weighing in on the construction of Black identity. It’s epic and ambitious for an 86 minute film, discussing, the origins of Black as an identity, the Black Church, language and dialect, hair, Creole identity, Black Power, Black feminism, afrocentricity, and the meaning of "unity" (impossible, in Riggs’s thought, until Black people "start talking about the way we hurt each other".)

Riggs also has a crucial part, narrating and talking from his hospital bed as he lay dying of AIDS-related illnesses. At one incredibly funny and sad scene, realizing he won’t live to finish the film, he gives advice to his co-producer about a scene of him naked in the woods." It’s of critical metaphoric importance. I’m confined and lost in the woods as the community is confined by its own limited notions of identity." While metaphor usually plays better when not explained, watching Riggs trying to get his message out as he sits, nauseous, in a hospital bed with little time left had me mourning his death all over again.

Whatever view one takes of Cobain and his death, it was heart-wrenching to watch one artist trying to create his political art and build community and audience with his last breaths at age 37, while another offs himself at 27, at the height of his popularity, leaving behind a kid and millions of people who wanted to listen to what he wanted to say.

When I first saw these films, parts of San Francisco felt like a ghost town due to AIDS. I lived on the Castro edge of the Mission back then, and watching men much younger than they looked, and many younger than I am now, limp and roll by my apartment on Dolores Park was just part of the environment. This landscape also included dementia in public, funerals at the mortuary down the block a few times a week and pages of Obituaries in the back of the gay press. Beyond the merit of the films themselves, Black Is and Tongues Untied are also opportunities to remind oneself of that time and mourn the people lost in that era. Even though his last movie was completed ten years ago, Riggs’s films are also opportunities to find our own voice and strength and figure out ways to prevent the generation-killings that are, or are about to be, carried out today.

And how punk is that?
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There’s not much to speak of or react to on this block. It’s a hill and almost all residential. My acupuncturist lives on one of the connecting side streets. I once saw an flyer from someone saying they were getting a free wireless connection and offering to chip in on the cost. A couple of windows are interestingly shaped.

Dullsville.

I once saw the middle of the street weeping from a broken underground pipe. It created a crack perpendicular to the roadway, and because of the steepness it was cascading down the block like a little waterfall. With slightly different timing it could have looked like a warning against our town’s godlessness or a sign of Armageddon. But the road crews were already there so it just looked like a broken water main

I do remember the apartment which had anti-apartheid posters in the windows for years until the National Party bastards finally were removed from power. The flag of the new South Africa immediately took the place of the posters. I admit that when I saw it the first time I got all teary. I’m not much of a flag person, but after years of activism against apartheid and years of seeing protest posters that seemed permanent, it was a reminder that things can change for the better … that sometimes we can win.

At the end of the block there’s a storefront. It’s a reminder that a marketing concept alone will not make you a successful businessman. Like the "Q Brew" guy before him, the "Gay Java" guy thought he could make money using private labeling and a target niche community. Both saw my store as the cornerstone of their retail strategy, albeit the Q Brew guy was hedging his bets with the gay bar business and the Gay Java guy had his own café.

Neither were successful of course. The Gay Java guy was upset when we wouldn’t give his non-fair trade, mediocre coffee the 4’x 8’ space where we sell Equal Exchange. He was also shocked when his product didn’t sell at all when we did find a space for it. Q Brew we actually tried harder to sell, if only because it came onto the market the same month as we got our beer/wine license and it seemed like a fun thing to do.

There were some hard feelings however when I read in a local paper that Q Brew guy was donating 10% of the profit on every sale to the charity of the retailer’s choice. He hadn’t told us that or asked where we wanted the money to go and I smelled scam. In retrospect I think he was just overwhelmed and disorganized. He also wasn’t making any profit so it didn’t really matter anyway. And the beer was crappy.

Gay Java guy’s café was called "The Red Cat Café" which I always suspiciously thought was trying to garner confused tourists looking for Red Dora’s Bearded Lady Café and Truckstop which was much more established and only about 100 yards away. It closed within 6 months of opening and had that about-to-close look about it from about six weeks after it opened.

Neither of them became the Navratilova Card of their respective industries. Identity politics has its retail limits and seems to work better when backed up with the money of large trans-national corporations.
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Ok folks, settle down. I got a little teary with that front page wedding photo too. God help me, I even forgot who she was and felt solidarity with Roberta Achtenberg* for a second. What’s going on this week is truly a wonderful thing and you have to admit that for whatever reason, my buddy Gavin did the right thing.

But "Marriage is Love" as a slogan? No. Demonstrably not. In fact, I’d call it an assault on the fine traditions of the Gay Liberation Movement as well as an insult to all the people who grew up in fucked up families or struggled to get out of bad state sanctioned relationships.

How about "Marriage can be a wonderful institution filled with love but can also be a sometimes deadly trap. In the end it’s really about property rights anyway. But if it exists, it should clearly be able to be used by everyone equally. I mean, duh."



* Head of the Chamber of Chamber of Commerce who’s in the background of the photo.
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After dinner last night, my housemates and I somehow got on the subject of our perceptions of the queerness of rock stars when we were little. Maybe things are different for today’s youth, but I remember my sister vigorously defending The Village People to her friends’ scurrilous accusations that they were queer and my brother doing the same for Queen.* I might have done the same for Boy George except that I hated Culture Club. I do vividly remember high school conversations where his defenders would say things like, "He’s not a fag, he just likes dressing in women’s clothes."

We also had all heard the rumor about some famous rock star who had to go to the emergency room to get "gallons of sperm" pumped from their stomachs.** The thing about that is that when I heard that rumor, stereotypically in a locker room, my two classmates were arguing whether it was Barry Manilow or Andy Gibb. My housemates, separated by nearly ten years and 3000 miles, heard the rumor later about Jon Bon Jovi. Dear Readers, which rock star did you hear had a stomach spermectomy?

We did confirm that we all heard the one about Richard Gere and the gerbils though, so we decided that one must be true.



*Actually, an even funnier story is when I took an "Intro to Mass Media" class in college. On a day about the emergence of rock video, the professor showed what he considered, "the most self-aggrandizing video ever". It was a Freddie Mercury solo video with him dressed in leather and getting chased around by stereotypical "hot babes". It was a hilarious parody of mainstream rock videos and Professor didn’t even get it. Nor did he try to explain why Mercury was in drag for another good portion of the video.

**That should be on an episode of E.R.:

"Get him into surgery stat! He’ll die if we don’t pump his stomach of sperm!"

""My God, how much did he drink?!?"

"Too much, that’s all I know. Move it!"
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A grad student friend of mine is doing her thesis on platonic relationships between mixed gender, queer/straight friends. When I asked a co-worker/friend to take part in the interview with me she said, "What are you talking about? You’re not straight."

A couple of months ago at a party, I was talking to a different co-worker’s girlfriend. She had just returned from a family visit and was talking about how good her mother had finally gotten about her being a big ol’ dyke and what a change that was. Then she asked me, "So how did your parents react when you came out?"

I’m not often at a loss for words but I really didn’t know what to say. In the 30 seconds to a minute of silence that followed, I realized that I met her through my queer punk friends and got to know her through her girlfriend and she didn’t really have "straight context" for me. I also didn’t wanna come off as offended or weird; I love it when I get read as queer. I’m just often surprised when it happens at a non-specifically queer event. But I also feel uncomfortable about claiming a queer identity when I haven’t met some of the fairly basic requirements. After I managed to mumble something like, "I don’t really sleep with boys you know?" she replied, "Yeah, but your not exactly normal either."

The funny thing is that she was partially right. I actually did come out to my parents. When J and I had our 10 year anniversary party in the woods, we were very upfront in our invitation* about our non-monogamy and J’s bisexuality as a way of not falling into the trap of our hetero union making other relationships invisible (and not privileging people in relationships over others). I was planning on explaining this stuff to my parents before we sent out the invites but my sister, in order to "help", told them her weird, not-based-in-reality version of our relationship, and I had to meet with them quickly to do emergency damage control. ("No, I’m not in a group marriage with my entire collective household. . . ")

I haven’t lived in an all-straight household in over 11 years of collective living situations. And I’ve been accused of over-processing by lesbos** and being too slutty by fags, so I have some qualifications. But I’m wary of the "Pat Freeman"*** syndrome. "Pat" was someone I went to college with. He was one of those icky middle class, straight, able-bodied, white men who claimed to feel like working class, disabled, Black lesbians. He even changed his name to "Pat Freemyn"**** so as not to oppress anyone.

That’s one of the reasons I’ve always been wary of identifying as queer even when my queer friends tell me I should. Of course, I also think a little identity confusion is a good thing as it keeps one from claiming the type of identity politics that have pretty much reached a dead end these days. I’ve kinda learned to like the weird, hard-to-describe-in-a-short-phrase, non-identity space I occupy around sexuality. I guess I’ve had to.

Either that or I just need to work on the fucking boys thing.



*It was more of a manifesto in all honesty.

**You were a lesbo at the time SK so I’m counting you, but you’re not the only one.

***Name changed to protect the guilty.

****This was the mid-‘80s remember.

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